Sunday, October 27, 2013

a day in the life, of a mind that is lost

i. morning

i live bluetooth world, constant poetic static.
i respirate verbs, gargle on superb blurbs,
in relentless streams of deepening dreams.
i play only for losing teams
and like to invent
hyper hippocampal schemes.

24-7 eleven, treat this broken puzzlepiece curb
like my own urban preserve...
big bites, corn dogs, the bathroom key jogs
around the beef jerky aisle, 24-7
without an inclination to smile
and the beat goes on
             the beat goes on
                   the beat goes on
        as the beaten grow strong
        working hours too long
        the whole world up in smoke.

        the ocean is the plastic bucket
        of a gravity bong:
            cluckhead throng, church bell dong,
            she is wearing dental floss thong,
            ignoring buddha temple gong.
            the peasoup of smog
            is a bit more
            kong than hong, the star ferry
            to kowloon
              purrs under a tumor of moon.

i live bluetooth world, contant poetic static
ignore subway turnstiles that pretend to be automatic
mood swings erratic, the golden dust in your attic.
italics are emphatic, hopes never static
as these impossible alleys open
up to the vastness of atlantic, and skyscrapers grow frantic
now that soho is a nogo, yuppie mofo bagel shop bogo
another pair of jeans, ripped on purpose
with a bright corporate logo, as my mood swings
like a gray matter yoyo.

manhattan: schizophrenic; bangkok: frenetic.

            the whole world is now a metropolis
             and the city is the wilderness
             and i went to scour las bellas artes
           in the back of my mind, restock, rewind
               doodle traces of rivera
               are never hard to find:
               volkswagen taxi bind, smiling zapote rind,
               the purification of pulque
               as a mariachi
               now goes blind,
                      from a constellation of flashbulbs
                      making his silver sombrero
            feel like a newfound distant planet
            brought close in the  feverish pursuit
            of a ten peso note, or three
                 as los borrachitos grumble, and fall from a tree.
           
                coyoacan frowns, with an old kahlo crutch
                and a metro junkie's needle
                is still deadly to touch.

ii. afternoon

the tag on the wall says, simply,
yanqui go home,

but we are in the heart of englewood
and, sadly, have no place else
to call home.

my smallest bag is packed, the atlas outspread,
this journey began hours ago
inside the castle of my head.

the nearest neighbor stops by, for coffee
and cake, and my mother-in law
makes a crossword mistake, and my wife
has to step way too hard on her brake,
as another ignorant driver
pretends a red light is green
and that, pre-birth
and post-death

there is life in between.

iii. evening

querelous quiz, spilled cheezy whiz:
gelly hair frizz, trying to look like liz
taylor is an abysmal failure.

alex trebek must be in jeopardy
because the cancer never spread,
and now, when we set the clocks back,
the rivers will reverse, and the fruitful plains
are carted off in a hearse.
migrants disperse, as mosquito breeze is terse,
knocking night nurse, our headache is worse,
as a lost and found purse
is emptied of all its contents:
   photo id, cell phone, faded boyfriend portraits,
   miserable minutiae that cannot be pawned
   even way across the pond, where the palms like to frond
   at the arrival of a blond, while all the coffee-stained locals
   are maids, cooks, and drivers.

now, i see the garish, shag carpet of sea, unfold before me,
          even though
          i bought this speedo at a thrift store in cleveland
          and in the water i shall be, soon enough

in this day in the life, of a mind that is lost
because there is nothing left for free

but a penny for my thoughts,
and a salad buried in the dumpster,
most merrily tossed.